Thursday, 13 October 2011

Farewells and Hello's

I don't blog anymore it seems.  I used to use it as a place to vent and waffle but it seemed to lose its sanctuary for me.

Things have been busy here.  It's been 6 months tomorrow since we moved.  So much has happened, so much has changed...

Last week we said a sudden painful farewell to our old Lab X Collie, Fern.  Old age and poor health meant that even though vaccinated, the local outbreak of CPV took her from us.  It was only 9 hours overnight from the first time she vomited to her taking her last breath.  As a VN I knew what it was as soon as the second lot of symptoms hit, the smell of CPV is something you never forget.  Luckily we had somewhere I could isolate her from our other dog that could also be properly disinfected and Willow, whilst older is in better health anyway.  I'd forgotten how easy it is to turn the VN in me back on...and how as much as I can hold it together on the surface, inside having to bag and cleaning up your own animal hurts so much.

On a happier note, at 17 weeks pregnant, we indulged this week and went for a private sexing scan.  Despite my earlier gut feelings (but something I had recently been reconsidering!) it's a little boy and poor DD burst into tears as soon as it was announced.  We now at least have another 20 or so weeks to find a name we actually like.

Friday, 29 July 2011

And then there was...six

Hmm, well no matter how many I pee on, it's still a BFP!  Totally unexpected, yet explains a lot lol  6+1 today by my LMP so due approx 22nd March 2012

Thursday, 21 April 2011

Sunday, 17 April 2011

And new babies...

Thistle decided to christen the new house in style...

2 boys, 2 girls born at 9am this morning ♥

Friday, 15 April 2011

New house, new home

In the chaos that surrounds moving, the stress, the dirt, the tiredness and tears...we have a new house...a new home

Thursday, 14 April 2011

Boxes and farewells

We're moving!!

Umm, tomorrow :S  Haven't finished packing, aren't particularly organised or prepared.  In fact, the whole thing is just a huge ball of stress that is making me pissed off and emotional.  About normal for me then!

I'm sure it will be fine.  Have BIL and DH moving heavy stuff and essentials (beds, etc!) tomorrow and then my dad helping with lighter stuff on Saturday.  On Sunday me and DH are on our own so we'll have to do what we can especially since we have no one to have the little ones.  I then have Monday - Thursday to unpack bits and then DH is off for 11 days!!

We have to get the garden here finished, house cleaned, some painting done and most important new carpet fitted - all before the 4th May and at a cheap a cost as possible as we have paid rent on both houses this month which is pretty crippling!  Oh and I am running off on the 29th for 3 nights to do my Trageschule course :)

The next 3 weeks are going to be hell...but so worth it!

Wednesday, 30 March 2011


Spring seems to have finally arrived

Cristata Shawl

A quick couple of days knit! I found the pattern simply as I wanted something nice to knit with a skein of my hand dyed yarn. Unfortunately, I ran out of yarn after the lace chart, so had to use a complimentary solid colour for the body.  I ripped out the short rows twice as I wasn't happy with the neatness of my W&T only to realise I'd done them completely wrong but it'll do for me.

Wednesday, 5 January 2011

New Year...

It has been ages since I blogged...or rather ages since I published anything I've written!

It's been an odd few months to say the least.  I threw myself into organising the Xmas Toy Orders and was intensely busy (so much so I was struggling) but it was all going to be worth it for the profit and the toys for our LO. Then, as I was placing the final orders with the distributors, I was told that someone had informed them of the pre-order offer I was running and they refused to supply me unless I provided certain information.  Devastated, I did as I was asked and then they changed the issues and asked for more information/statements. The whole thing stank of jealously and price fixing but they back peddled when approached yet still refused to supply unless I submitted certain "promises" all the while stalling and offering no assurances that I would receive my orders before Xmas even if I did what they wanted.

After a couple of weeks of hell I ended up letting down a huge amount of people, refunding £9k of orders and losing several hundreds of pounds in charges/fees. It also meant that with the lack of income and loss of money I had no money for Xmas for us at all :( Along with DH working constantly, 16-18 hour days, Christmas was, for me at least, rather sad. The kids enjoyed themselves but I'd wanted this year to be special. Next year maybe...

Healthwise, I've had a few dodgy weeks...looks like I DEFINITELY can't drink alcohol in any way :S and still hurt if I overdo things. Lost a bit more weight but Xmas probably undid all of that despite the lack of chocolate (more just the lack of doing anything!) I have slipped back into old eating habits since I had my op since I can now eat what I want-ish again so will have to re hash my attitude to food etc again as well as trying to locate my will power to diet!

The other exciting thing is our upcoming move. After spending a month with no boiler, having a bathroom that is falling apart, a leaky pipe that means DD's room is like a swimming pool, various other issues along with here being so damn isolated...we are moving to be nearer to friends.  A big thing for me as I hope the added bonus of being near friends will force me to finally kick the dregs of my agoraphobia. My depression has actually been relatively under control considering what's happened the last few months and I would love to be "normal" again LOL plus it will be sooo much better for the little ones.

Oh and as a kickstart to being more confident...I am planning on doing something just for babywearing instructors course! Something I was going to do but was kind of persuaded it was a bad idea. But I WANT to do it and am even planning on going alone and spending a few days alone (I will actually get a few nights sleeping on my own woohoo!) So I have a hellishly hectic few months ahead and am still struggling to kick Xmas flu and apathy...but it's a New Year, New Start, New Me ♥