Friday, 20 August 2010

Ostheimer Woody Goodies!

As a bit of a sideline to my regular stock I also run pre-orders for wooden toys (with the added bonus of course that I can take advantage of wholesale prices for items for the LO)

The latest small Ostheimer order arrived yesterday and it was full of yumminess

And after dinner yesterday the LO set about creating a gorgeous woodland play scene

Noro Knitting

I needed a shrug to go with the dress I  plan hope to wear for the wedding (in 16 days :O) and after much umming and ahhing over matching shoes and slings I chose a gorgeous shade of Noro Silk Garden Lite.

I'm now 6 repeats into around a 14 repeat pattern so had better get a move on and get this baby knitted and blocked!!

It's been awhile....

Actually quite a poignant title...I think the Staind song with the same title has a few lines that are more than appropriate at the moment...

It's been a while
Since I could...
Hold my head up high...

It's been a while
Since I could say
I love myself as well and...

It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up
Just like I always do

I remember saying to my mum a few weeks into the diet that it was easy - I wasn't hungry and felt good.  And yet I still sabotaged the weight loss, started playing around, substituting meals and then unconsciously I guess, thinking one bite won't hurt.  Instead of making a healthy choice at dinner time if I was still hungry or didn't want a soup etc I'd pick on left fact left overs have become my worst enemy!  I can go all day fine and then dinner destroys all my good intentions.

For the couple of weeks I have vowed to myself to get back to 100% but then think....just one more meal/day...and then the vicious cycle of beating myself up....3 weeks of playing around means I am 3/4 stone off my target now and the wedding looms and the dress fits but not well....

So, I'm back to blogging as my support net.  I don't want to bore friends and family (DH seems rather indifferent to it all) with my long term struggles and don't want to be judged on the forum for doing a VLCD so here I am!!

Prepare for waffle!!